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Neither did I. [She is clearly not happy about that.] But I am alone... and I. [Ugh.]
Miss them.

[This could be an act.]

[But if it is, it's a damn good one. For now, he's erring on the side of compassion.]

Are you okay?

[It's an actual, genuine question.]

[There was an actual twitch in her jaw muscle at that question. This was fucking embarrassing. She didn't even want to admit to the one person that liked her in this damn place that she wasn't okay; she sure as fuck didn't want to--

She curled her fingers into her hand, pressing the edges of her nails into her palm.]

I am not answering that.

[Most of this conversation has been a surprise to Wash. That response in particular is the one thing that has not.]

[So he leans back a bit and takes a moment to think. Might as well be honest - it seems like Widowmaker is, though he doesn't know her well enough to judge that for sure.]

[Sombra would know. Sombra's also not here anymore.]

I'm going to level with you: I'm not inclined to give it back. It's...a reminder. [Less of Edgelord McHotTopic and more of the lesson he'd learned the hard way the first time he'd tangled with Ghostface Lite.] Which I guess makes it sentimentality on my part too, though I'm guessing not the same as yours.

Look, we don't know each other that well, but from what I can tell, this isn't like you. Given the only two people who really know you from back home have left...well, I'm a little worried.

[Partially because having the stone-cold assassin on your team go off-kilter is a goddamn terrifying prospect, and partially because he can't fucking help it. Widowmaker is part of his team, whether she chooses to act like it or not, and that's enough for Wash to be concerned about her, if only a little.]

Sombra's stuff is everywhere and we will be finding pieces randomly for months, but that gun is the only thing left of Reaper. What meager possessions he had were packed up with him when he went chasing ghosts.

[She wasn't going to beg for it back. That was her last attempt to persuade him. And whereas she wasn't going to go into the meat of her current state of being Not Okay, she would at least somewhat address his concerns.]

What would you do, Agent Washington, if you were trapped in a place where no one wanted you, you could not do the one thing you are good at that has been your purpose for close to a decade, and the two people who understood you and, more importantly, why you are the way you are have been taken away from you likely never to return?

Oh, and a power you cannot turn off makes it impossible to have remotely close to a normal emotional response to any of that. Do not worry; I have taken myself off active duty.

There is always his part of the hab deck. [Shrug.] It's not like they're hard up for space, so they tend not to clear those out.

[Not that he's gone to check on the chalk outline garbage fire party that was Reaper's hab, but the philosophy had held true for just about everyone else who'd left.]

[As for the rest of it...]

I don't think you know this, but when I first arrived here about, oh, eight months ago [Holy shit it's been that long], the only other person here from my dimension was Grif, and thanks to timeline bullshit, he was from a point before we'd met. I was a soldier, pulled straight from the last battle of a war that turned out to have been a genocide in disguise the whole time, in a different dimension where my usual MO was frowned upon at best and the one person who should have known me didn't.

So I made some fucking friends, and I have a hard time believing you haven't done the same. [There's dozens of Legionnaires on the ship; he refuses to believe that she only ever talked to Reaper and Tracer, especially given the stir she'd caused when she'd first arrived.] It's not the same as the people who know you inside and out, but it's better than nothing.

And if you want the chance to have a normal emotional response, I can give you that. [For a whole two minutes, sure, but the offer's still on the table.]

[Widowmaker had a lot she could say, despite there being some truth in what he said (her mind specifically drifting to a certain elf) but all that was completely derailed at the 'offer' Wash made.

She went completely still, not even breathing, and her eyes went wide. It was the closest look to fear that could possibly pass over her countenance. The idea of having her Apathy nullified when compared to the sheer amount of years of emotional baggage she hadn't been capable of process built up... with the worst month of her existence recently relived on her mission infiltrating the Catastrophists was more than she could handle right then.

The only reason she has been functioning was because she couldn't actually feel any of it. She could remember how it used to feel... and she didn't want to feel it again. Certainly not in front of Washington.

So, without a word, Widowmaker got up, grabbing her omnicomm at the same time, and just walked away. Her game of Candy Crush was still paused on the table, her gym bag on the chair, half-drank cup of hot chocolate left behind in her wake.]

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